we are not what you think we are

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At this very moment I should be preparing for my essays and doing my homework, but here I've been editing photos, reading blogs and listening to music for hours. Procastination is so easy but at the end of the day it never makes me truly happy. So I guess I should just go and start making notes - or at least select the title for the essay. That'd be a very good start.

P.S. I just love it when I'm listening to a random playlist and suddenly a song I loved ages ago starts playing and all these memories fill my head. Yeah, that's what happened when I heard the beginning MIKA's We are golden just a few minutes ago.

when you're around me i'm radioactive

After seeing that almost magical place, I couldn't resist going to the sunflower field to take some photos. It was probably the first time I ever saw a sunflower field - maybe that tells how much of a countryman I am... I remember that roughly ten years ago when I planted a sunflower seed (it was actually birds' food!) in the beginning of that summer, by the end of it we had a big sunflower in our garden. I really loved to see it grow especially because everyone said that it wouldn't grow! When I move to my own place I'm going to have loads of herbs and stuff growing on my window sill.

I feel bad for my other clothes since I'd like to wear this hoodie all the time. It's super comfy, warm, soft and I love the colour too. Thanks to my habit of not wearing the same outfit two days in a row I have to leave time for other clothes too. My outfits have been utterly boring since school started but I can only blame my own laziness and lack of creativity. At the moment my mind is on the Finnish essays, not on what I'm going to wear tomorrow - and it sucks! Especially when we have these mind-numbing titles like How I became me and Finland through a car's window. And if you want to write something fictional, you can pretend to be a boy in the 19th century who just got his first job and write a letter to your family! How fascinating... I really want to do more creative writing and use my imagination, but apparently that isn't in our curriculum.

So, I'm asking you, is there any good website for uploading your own short stories? Maybe in English since these days I do most of my writing in that language. Though it wouldn't be bad if I wrote something in Finnish for once so if there's a quality site, please tell me!

random photos

1 It's really heartbreaking to hear stories of natural disasters like this bitch Irene. But thankfully the worst part should already be over and it hasn't caused as much damage as they expected. One upside of Finland is that those kind of things would never happen here and I'm greatful of that.
2 On thursday when we celebrated my friend's birthday, my other friend had made a cake that was such a cutie! Gotta love the chocolate and m&m's on top of it, so good. And because it was her 17th birthday, there were 17 candles in the shape of 17, naturally. You're never too old for that!
3 Yesterday a random cat turned up to our garden and it was just sitting there. Our dog went nuts, didn't understand what was going on and would've wanted to play with the cat. Pets are such fools!

As you probably can see, the layout changed again. At the moment I'm quite happy with it, a little different than usually. If something isn't working properly, please send me a comment. And I hope you like it too!

Florence + the Machine never fails to make a beautiful song.

One track mind like a gold fish stuck inside my petri dish

I'm back again! The past two days were crazy; I met new people, I was sad, I was happy and at the moment I'm just really tired. I've been sleeping on a train, feeling sick on a bus, speaking English a lot, learning new things, singing rhymes, having deep conversations. Realising that some people are worth liking and some are not.

I've got more and more sure about the fact that I want to get out of here. This town and the whole country just aren't for me. I've fallen even more deeply in love with Marina and the Diamonds and their new song Fear and Loathing - could listen to it all day long. There's this one girl in mathematics who has an amazing style and I'd really like to take a photo of her and publish it here but I'm too shy to ask, silly me. I'm pretty sure she has a blog too or at least she follows them because she wears things that you can see online but most of the girls at our school wouldn't wear (they're quite boring at times). If you read this, please continue dressing up like that. Thankyou.

Now I have two movies to watch and a lot of sleep to catch. I'm satisfied.

Different Names for the Same Thing

Some of my favourite photos from we♥it's ulzzang tag. Why can't I be as perfect as they are? I really love the blue backpack and the couple's shirts are just so cute. Dear future girlfriend, prepare to wear one of those! After seeing my terrible roots today, I decided I'll dye my hair warm brown next, maybe with the violet highlights. And then I could let my hair rest for a while, I guess... Has anyone else gotten inspired by ulzzang lately?

For me it's been quite hard to combine school and free time together - I do have time after school but I feel like I don't so I don't do anything. Anyways, this week should be so much fun but in some ways very sad too. On wednesday I'll meet my friend from another city and on thursday I'll meet a friend that I'm going to miss loads after she leaves. But we'll see each other again, I'm sure of that.

This will be my last confession "I love you" never felt like any blessing

I’m quite harmless now you see. To you. And now nobody can hurt me on the inside. I have this trick — anything you can do to me, I do to myself already. And I hit harder than you ever could.

I survived, the first week of school is over! And because a reward is always needed, we bought some ice cream and ate it almost right away. It was absolutely delicious, but I still think that Strawberry Cheesecake is the best of all ice cream. Those little peace signs were so cute and it was all fair trade stuff! Happiness.

1. I thought that maybe I could dye some purple / violet highlights on my hair - I think It'd look cool with blonde. Opinions? There sould be at least this shade available here and Mystic Violet, Cosmic blue and Damson wine are more than bearable too. Gotta love the names.
2. I have one more tattoo dream now since I saw a photo of a girl with a Totoro inked on her skin. I seriously need one of those and I'm feeling rather upset because one of my friends went to get a tattoo today. That lucky girl!
3. I've officially seen the first mushrooms of the year. I would never eat them but I like to photograph them. For some odd reason I just think that they are adorable.
4. Would I be too late if I bought a Fjällräven Kånken bag now? I think I need one, like, right now. Is someone willing to give me 60 dollars?

Everyone else is sleeping already, so I guess it's my time to go to bed now too. I love to fall asleep when I'm really tired, when I close my eyes I feel like I'm falling without a fear.

FICTION

I was just about to write an entry but then I realised that I was going to write about school and all the lame things in my life at the moment. I don't want to that, I feel like all we can talk about right now at school and everywhere is school, studying and homework. No, no, no.

So that's definitely enough of school. Today it wasn't raining like yesterday, so I went to buy some postcards. I've got two postcards this week - one from Taiwan and one from China. The Chinese person who sent the card had selected many beautiful stamps, it really made my day. I love it when people do that and write something more than just "Happy Postcrossing" because getting an almost blank card is quite sad. I also have some letters to write but maybe I'll still wait a little... I don't want to write them in a hurry! And remember to follow my 365 Challenge blog on tumblr which I'm updating almost daily!

Here we are again, I feel the chemicals kicking in

Oops, for the whole weekend I didn't pay attention to this blog at all but I was enjoying the last days of summer holiday. I can't believe I was at school today, the last day I was there feels like yesterday. Or the day before yesterday, at least. I was there for only an hour but only 15 minutes of that place made me anxious and stressed. I have to think about my courses, again - there's an English course that I should take but I'm not sure how I'm going to fit it into my schedule. Ugh, I'm so fed up already!

Today I went out with some friends and we met a baby hedgehog that we named Simba. He was kind of lost and scared of my friend's dog, but we bravely saved him and helped him to get out of my friend's yard. And look at her cat! He was hiding there like a boss, my favourite cat in the entire world. He's like old as hell but still alive and kicking! Anyways, how did your week start? Do you also love school too much?

go on and try to tear me down

It's getting colder and colder and at the moment my room starts to get to the normal temperatures - currently I'm wearing a pair of woolen socks, college pants and a hoodie. I love to go to bed and wear lots of clothes, under the several layers of fabric I feel so warm and safe. My mother told me that they are leaving to our summer cottage for the weekend and I'll be staying alone at home this time. It's great, I want to invite some friends and just have a night full of babbling and fun. Another thing also excites me - I will be able to cook whatever I want!

Last.fm is probably the best place for discovering new music. I hadn't realized that until I made an account and since then I've been visiting the website almost daily. I discovered the most adorable Japanese singer called immi via a friend and it was instant love. Speaking of Japan, I want to open up about the movie I watched. Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind (風の谷のナウシカ) is the best film I've seen in a long time. It represents my thoughts quite well and I highly recommend everyone to watch it. Forget about the fact that you're watching anime and concentrate on the plot and the meaning of the movie.

And here's my new hair colour! The red colour faded away and looked not-so-good so I decided to make a change. We bleached it twice during last weekend and it's quite good now, after using silver conditioner. It feels actually pretty good to be blonde again! But I can't wait to see my dark roots...

The song and the video are just... perfect.

My hair colour changes more often than the seasons

I have managed to get a huge addiction to tea even though I prefer to call it just a good relationship with it. I love to begin my day with a cup or two and there isn't anything better than sitting under a blanket sipping the hot drink that you can feel when it goes down to your stomach. Just pure love.

Some people always say that they would never be able to go to the cinema alone. But they still do watch movies alone at home, right? I personally don't see a big difference in those two - to me, watching a movie doesn't mean that I'm constantly chatting with my friends (though if I'm watching a movie that is very, very bad with my friends, it's different...) and enjoying the company. I like to enjoy the movie itself. Of course when the movie theatre is full of couples and friend groups it might feel lonely to be just with yourself, but when the lights turn off, we all are alone.

Not that I have ever been alone in a movie theatre, but I'm just saying that I don't see anything bad about it. The movie tickets cost so much these days that I like to just rent some DVDs and spend a night watching them. Today I got Pride and Prejudice, Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind and King's Speech. I hope I succeed to watch them before thursday evening.

My favourite song (& artist) at the moment - a bit old but I still love it!

Rasp Berry

Oh my God how much I hate editing layouts. I've been doing this for like two hours now and I'm already exhausted. Some years ago when I had my own domain and website the editing was so much fun but now when I'm using blogger, it has become much more complicated. Getting the wanted result is hard because some codes aren't even working properly on blogger and still after hours of editing, the layout looks so similar to all other blogger layouts. Oh well, so, I just wanted to tell that I edited the layout again. Even though you could have seen it by yourselves, too.

The blueberries weren't enough for us and yesterday we were picking raspberries and red currants in our backyard. The raspberries we froze while juicing the currants - now we'll have something good to eat in the winter. Our apples are soon ready to eat but we still have to wait a couple weeks because my sister tasted one yesterday and told that it was hard as a rock. I hope it was autumn already! It simply makes everything more beautiful and I really want to have fresh apples from our trees.

Love Is A Laserquest

My Blueberry Days

Blueberries have a diverse range of micronutrients, with notably high levels of the essential dietary mineral manganese, vitamin B6, vitamin C, vitamin K and dietary fiber.

Yestereday we went to our summer cottage again. After approximately ten minutes we were bored and decided to go to pick berries. At first we found only three tiny blueberries and two wild strawberries but then my dad drove us to a better place that had lots and lots of blueberries! When we got back we made a blueberry pie that was pretty wet but good. It was much better than our regular blueberry pies since we used fresh berries.

And yeah, I changed my mind again. I created another blog for my 365 challenge because I don't feel like spamming the photos here. The link to that tiny tumblr blog is up in the link bar - if you have a tumblr account, feel free to follow. However, I will be uploading some of the photos to this blog too.

zebra striped girl

Today I went to take some photos with my sister. I wasn't feeling photogenic at all so I just stayed behind the camera. It was fun because I hadn't been taking photos of her for a long time. Just an hour ago we baked delicious cookies and now we're watching House and I'm so confused - what has happened to all the familiar characters?!

Orange juice

2/365

This is what I call fun killing time. After a long, meaningless day I often find myself at night doing things that I wouldn't do during the daytime, but I like to say that some people's minds work much effectively at night. Still, sometimes when I wake up in the morning I suddenly remember that I wrote a blog post last night and start thinking what the hell have I written - hopefully not anything stupid. Last night I was playing with watercolours and my camera and didn't manage to take anything phenomenal but anyways.

By the way, I just had my hair cut and I don't like this faded red-ish colour with semi short hair, so I'm going to force my sister to dye it soon. I'm a little scared but I hope that I'll be fine with enough bleach and silver shampoo. Right?!

365 CHALLENGE

1/365

So, I wanted to begin this 365 challenge now. I thought that it would make me more inspired, make me leard new things and of course, make me photograph more. I know that when school begins I will get very uninspired so it's definitely a good thing if I have something to motivate me to take photos. I didn't want to create another blog for this because I already have this blog and my tumblr so I'm just going to post them here with all the regular stuff. And when I'm not able to post a photo everyday, I'll just post many photos at one time.

And about this photo I took last night... For a while I've wanted to photograph starry skies and tonight I wanted to quickly try it. The result is quite bad but when it's winter and the nights are long and dark, I will try this again. I need to try to decrease the noise and find a place that is darkest possible.

save the world tonight

So today I went through my room and found my stamp collection. I was quite a philatelist when I was younger and looking at these ones I already have made me want to restart this hobby again. A big part of them I have got from my mother because she's done some collecting during her youth and that's why I have some quite old and maybe little precious things.

001: A postcard from 1906 so it's over 100 years old! It's so beautiful and in a good condition. The back of it says that it's sent to a place called Koria and the postmark says Kausala. I checked Google maps and I found those places and they are located near Kouvola. The thing that confuses me is that there is Russian writing on the stamp and the postmark. I don't know much about my country's history, but it may be like that because Finland wasn't independent then, right?

002: Some pretty stamps my mum has collected when she was young. It's funny how back then they cost 0,70 mk (0,12 €) and now they cost 0,75 € (4,46 mk)...

003: These are almost my favourite ones! Everybody loves princess Diana and those stamps are just adorable. I also have a lot of stamps of the Queen.

004: My grandmother gave me this cute collection of farm animal stamps some years ago, there are a lot of them and many different animals.

So, are there any other (ex-)philatelists out there?

Swedish House Mafia - Save The World

sweet dreams

[01] So, we had the surprise party on saturday and it was so much fun! The birthday girl had no idea about it until she saw a bike outside their house (which we could have moved away from there but we were panicing for the last 10 minutes...) so it was quite successful.

[02] Lately, I have got many super cute stamps! Even though I'm not collecting them anymore they are an important part of snail mailing for me. I have loads of stamps in my locker, maybe I should take some photos of them one day. The letters and the postcard in this photo are from the USA, South Korea, the UK and Japan.

[03] My mom knows how to surprise me. When she came back from work today she brought my favourite salad again. After spending the day with my little sister and brother I really was happy to at least get some good food.

Now I'm going to watch Harry Potter and and the Goblet of Fire with my little sister and eat some sweets! Have a great week everyone ♥