sometimes i ignore you so i feel in control

What have I been doing recently:
[01] Eating too much chocolate - don't ever give me something to eat for my birthday / christmas unless you want to destroy my banging hot body make me fatter because I sure will eat everything  I get.  
[02] Being at the same time delighted but confused because I got a Big Bang poster with this Finnish magazine that usually prefers rock bands etc. But K-pop, whattaaaa?! They are really getting big in Europe too. Waiting for SNSD's and 2NE1's posters, they would probably be the only ones I'd put onto my door. (Though I was just googling life-sized SHINee posters but shh, don't tell anyone)  
[03] Taking naps. Seriously, even the thought of studying maths is making me exhausted and today I thought that I'm gonna start studying after I have rested a bit. Well, I woke up at 4pm and I still haven't touched the book. Way to go, me.  
[04] Being annoyed because of the H&M + Marni collaboration. I mean, it's okay, they can make clothes with the Queen of England if they want to, but now every single blog is posting about these clothes which are probably going to be overpriced and weird. Just look at the latest H&M + Versace collection. I'm not gonna say the word vomit (oops), but they're just a little bit too extreme for me.  
[05] Cooking. Today I had problems with cooking rice but it turned out eatable, and yesterday I made something, well, some food. I wanted noodles and I just threw stuff onto the frying pan and then ate it! And no, I still don't like broccoli. The whole dish just looked so pale without it, but I didn't even eat it. Name a food or an ingredient and I probably don't like it.

Tomorrow I'm gonna have to debate in front of dozens of people of which some are natives in English and I'm terrified. And I should have something appropriate to wear but I have no idea what that means. This is going well. Have a good week peeps!

Pretty in pink

Weird things happen every day. 

When Siiri and I get an idea of doing something, we have to do it immediately. Sometimes even waiting for the next day is difficult and we can't handle our excitement. Today early in the morning Siiri went shopping and came back with some hair dye packages which usually means a chemical-smelling day spent in our bathroom. Today was not an exception. She had bought bleach and pink dye for herself but somehow my hair turned out more pink than hers. I'm sure that the British judges will like my very classical hairstyle on Wednesday when I'm going to participate in an English debate. Judge me.

My new instax camera is already my new best friend. Every photo I take with it looks so good I can't even believe it. It doesn't matter if the objects are out of focus or too light - that cheap toy makes all the flaws look pretty. I'm quite a perfectionist when I'm photographing with my DSLR and hate when the photos look worse on Photoshop than on the camera's screen. But when you're holding a photo on your hands, you can feel it and forget about the imperfect parts. Loves it.

Instant love

Guess what I just got?! My new Fujifilm Instax mini 25 instant camera! I have been looking forward trying it out since my dad ordered it on Monday and today I finally took the first photos with it. It actually arrived in Finland on Tuesday so the delivery was super quick. The film is pretty expensive, but I'll just have to use it carefully. But I really want to order some Hello Kitty film from amazon, it's £12 a package, but so damn worth it. I can't wait to show you more of the photos I'll be taking with this lovely thing. Any other instax camera owners?

Tomorrow is quite a special day since I'll have my last P.E. lesson ever. It's the last day of this period too and next week is going to be boring as hell - exams everyday and nothing else. But I don't mind really because I've been so tired this week, two exams and long school days have been more exhausting than I thought.

I am a kitten ♪

I hate it when you start talking to someone and they’re really nice to you (compliments, smiles, bonding etc.) and you feel that you’re getting closer to them but then suddenly they stop talking to you. For no reason. Just like that. x

Last night I was chatting on facebook with my friends and we decided to meet up in the city today. We didn't have anything special to do, so we just ate and had a good time. We had these huge portions of ice cream and it was a little difficult to walk back home because I was so full. It is also clear that the Christmas time has already begun because there are lights and music everywhere, and yesterday while shopping with mum, there were kids singing Christmas carols. In November. Time to start panicking about the presents, right?

Since my birthday is tomorrow, my mum bought me some stuff I wanted yesterday. I got a pullover which is super warm and cute, a scarf, Miyazaki's movie Castle in the Sky and bed sheets. Thank you mum ♥ It was nice spending a day with her even though she started whining when I still would've wanted to visit some stores. She said that she's getting old but seriously, you're not too old for shopping when you're 42.

As you can see, the layout is different again and I'm just wondering is it working properly for you? I don't have a Mac so I don't know how it looks like with Safari, but Firefox, Google Chrome and even IE should be okay. (But if you're using Internet Explorer, please, stop. There's a whole new world you don't know about.) And I promise, no big changes for a while. I only have some Christmas decoration on my mind...

Come dine with me

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みそしる、すし、にくじゃが
私たちはきのう日本の料理を食べた。この肉じゃがはおいしいです！あかりさんとトゥーレ先生、ありがとうございます。

Some photos of our partly chaotic cooking session. You know that when there are 16 non-Japanese students and only one Japanese girl trying to make something eatable, it's not going to be easy. However, the food was pretty good! Most of us weren't that good at making sushi so it looks like a little kid had made them - but that's just cute. And I even tasted sushi, can you believe it? I never thought I would put seaweed into my mouth. The nori wasn't bad but... I still prefer, like, salad. But I can't wait to try some new Asian dishes!

I guess I don't have to even mention that I failed seperating my chopsticks while our Japanese assistant teacher did it with her teeth. I feel like a failure. I recommend watching this video which tells more about the o-hashi and especially waribashi. Soooo funny ~ And please, ignore my poor Japanese, I'm such a beginner.

The one that got away

I should've told you what you meant to me 'cause now I pay the price.

Finally got my own Christmas lights and I love them. At first I tried these cute and small led ones but they didn't work (which made me so annyoed since I had spent half an hour putting them up) so now I have those heart-shaped lights. They look so lovely when all the other lights are turned off though the wires aren't that pretty. Well, we'll see if I find a proper solution or buy a new pack of lights - these I found when going through the stuff we have in our hall.

Tomorrow should be an exciting day. We are going to make Japanese food instead of the usual studying. I hope I can take my camera with me even though I'd feel like a fool taking photos there without a friend... Well, they all know that I'm a weirdo, so whatever.

Kiss the rain

Sometimes I wish I could be something else than a human being. I'm getting tired of the mood swings, arguments, relationships, everything. Like some people would like to be the Queen of England for a day, I'd enjoy spending 24 hours as a caterpillar. A day without drama, hate, love or duties. The goal of the day would simply be trying to stay alive.

No, I'm not in my teenage angst mood again, I'm just disappointed in life. Today I received a heart-warming little letter from my penpal which made me so happy. I'm glad that some people care about me so much that they send me chocolate when I'm moody even though they live over 4000 miles away from me. Thank you, it was delicious! I also bought an early birthday present for myself today - two of Miyazaki's movies. Yes, I have seen them both before and should have bought them after buying christmas presents, but a) I need to collect them all b) they are helping me learn Japanese c) they were only six euros each and in my opinion I'd deserve a lot more expensive gifts even from myself d) my blood glucose level was dangerously low and I just needed the endorphin rush of buying something.

I also got this huge Kanji book from the library and I feel like crying when just going through those pages full of signs that I will never be able to learn. Though I have noticed that I learn them pretty quickly and doodling them during boring physics/maths/English/Swedish lessons is helping a lot, I think! For example, I know the kanji for an umbrella! So useful, I know. But 2000 signs... Challenge accepted.

Listen to these two music files together at the same time - I guarantee you'll love it.

talk that talk

ディナーパーティー!

My dad & stepmum had invited some friends for a dinner today so it has been a super busy day. After waking up at 10 am because of my stupid lovely little brother and his horrible music taste I have been quite tired all day. I wish I would be tired when I'm supposed to go to sleep too. But that's stupid to even think of. Yesterday I went to see Paranormal Activity 3 with my gurrls and it was so scary. I was leaning on my friend and we both screamed everytime something bad happened. I can't wait to see the next Paranormal since I find the story about the sisters & the demon pretty interesting actually. Before the movie I saw this Paul Frank wrapping paper at some shop and I have to go buy it when I get money on Tuesday. I'm a Paul Frank fan forever and I want to give cute Christmas presents to my friends.

A lovely guitar cover of Big Bang's 하루하루 played by the amazing Sungha Jung. I wish I had that kind of a talent, his fingers are just moving like magic! Thanks to Elina for introducing me to his music.

christmas & birthday wishlist

Just dreaming of these things...

My birthday is coming soon and I am super excited. And even though I just listed some things I'd like to get (and never will get), I'm not excited because of the presents. I'm excited because I'm going to make a cake for myself and eat it.

But seriously, I really don't know if there's something I actually need at the moment. I have been dreaming of a new phone because the one I have is now two years old. At the same time something like a Galaxy tab would be so cool but they're so expensive and I don't know are they that useful at all. #FirstWorldProblems A new camera, Nintendo DS Pokémon games, an iPod, Spotify prerium, a ticket to this k-pop concert in Paris, a Fujifilm Instax, Hannah Montana seasons 1-4 on DVD, a fisheye lens, an order to Yesstyle.com... Are all those things so important? I have mixed feelings of... life.

One thing I know for sure is that I need to buy Christmas lights to my room. All this because of the Finnish Queen of Christmas lights Jemina who posted these adorable photos on her blog. I can't wait to watch drama, drink tea and take bokeh photos of the lights during the dark winter nights. Yes.

Photos Verkkokauppa.com Rajalacamera.fi

レーザービーム

FAKE BLOOOD!! Ughhh

Yesterday me and some of my friends arranged a Halloween party and I can't remember the last time I had so much fun! It was great to see that people really had dressed up and weren't wearing just the usual party clothes, I was happily surprised. I had a problem with my costume and came up with this idea of a crazy artist... Not scary or anything but better than nothing. Many of us, including myself, had fake blood on our faces and you know, when we finally decided to go to sleep, there was blood everywhere. I can tell you that it wasn't a pleasure to wake up in the morning and see red stains on the floor, on the sofas, on the tables... Thank God it was easy to remove! Though the blood I had on my face can still be seen even though I have cleaned my face like 5 times today. I'll wear a scarf tomorrow at school then. But anyways, I made some new friends and everything went smoothly so I can't be happier ~ Have you already celebrated Halloween?

leave my body

I guess I don't even have to say that this week's been a not-so-good one. If I could tag these four days like blog entries, you'd see something like headaches, stress, chocolate, school, tumblr, panic, pain etc. My room is a big mess but I have no energy to clean it, there are clothes everywhere and I'm running out of fresh socks. I should write a speech for tomorrow, practise ひらがな and Japanese vocabulary for tomorrow's test, get halloween-y music for Saturday's party, make a costume for myself and sleep more than 5 hours a night. Somehow I just can't handle even one busy week without losing my mind.

Yes, I'm one of those people who take photos of themselves while brushing their teeth at night. Don't jugde me.

I've been reading my old blogs and diaries and I don't know should I be surprised or not when I'm noticing that some things never change. I've been complaining about the same issues since 2007 and I see no end. My livejournal blog is such a great place to make myself embarassed but it's sad that I've deleted so many entries. Somehow I miss the time when all the cool people (including me, of course...) had friends only blogs and people didn't try to be so professional. And nowadays I feel that when I write more, people aren't that interested in the entry. I miss writing but these days blogging without photos isn't considered as interesting.

So I'd like to know which do you like the most - text or photos? And is there anyone who is taking this NaNoWriMo challenge this month? I feel like trying but I can't concentrate enough to write a 50,000-word-long novel.

P.S. This video shows that boys can wear animal costumes as well. Plus, the dance is just epic, I can't breathe.